A time to think home?
I haven't been back to the place where I have grown up for almost 4 years. During my five and a half year stay in UK, I went back home twice. Contrary to the excitment that the others have experienced when flying back or holiday, I didn't want to go, but I had to. The first time was the death of my grandmother, and I went back to HK for a week. Another time was to attend the my mum's wedding. It was 4 years ago.
In the past 4 years, I didn't particularly miss home. I could see my parents each year as they had flew to UK to stay with me for a while. Besides, if I had decided to fly back to HK, where should I stay? My dad place, or my mum place? It's a thorny issue. Most importantly, I had a purpose to stay in UK. During the past 4 years, though time went very fast, I found my life fulfilling and fascinating. Every moment was so precious, that I want to hold it and I was afraid that the momentum will change if I had decided to be away for a long time. I didn't waste my past 4 years, and I could boast and give honour to God for what He has done in my life.
Yet now comes a time that I have started to miss the place where I had grown up in the first twenty-one years of my life. My parents want me to stay near to them. My old friends that I have still kept in touch have called me to go back.
During the past 4 years, God has poured out many blessings to the fellowship to which I belong. I am still serving as a leader. However, I felt that I have already poured out what I have to the fellowship. I have runned out my idea and these days I found it difficult to add something new to the fellowship. Or more preciously,though I still have a heart, I feel more and more inadequate to move the fellowship forward to a new level that is beyond the current bottleneck. Perhaps it is more about the spiritual level. Yet the fellowship need something fresh. This should be our prayer.
Just see how's the results of the coming interview in 2 weeks time. I should treat it as a sign.
In the past 4 years, I didn't particularly miss home. I could see my parents each year as they had flew to UK to stay with me for a while. Besides, if I had decided to fly back to HK, where should I stay? My dad place, or my mum place? It's a thorny issue. Most importantly, I had a purpose to stay in UK. During the past 4 years, though time went very fast, I found my life fulfilling and fascinating. Every moment was so precious, that I want to hold it and I was afraid that the momentum will change if I had decided to be away for a long time. I didn't waste my past 4 years, and I could boast and give honour to God for what He has done in my life.
Yet now comes a time that I have started to miss the place where I had grown up in the first twenty-one years of my life. My parents want me to stay near to them. My old friends that I have still kept in touch have called me to go back.
During the past 4 years, God has poured out many blessings to the fellowship to which I belong. I am still serving as a leader. However, I felt that I have already poured out what I have to the fellowship. I have runned out my idea and these days I found it difficult to add something new to the fellowship. Or more preciously,though I still have a heart, I feel more and more inadequate to move the fellowship forward to a new level that is beyond the current bottleneck. Perhaps it is more about the spiritual level. Yet the fellowship need something fresh. This should be our prayer.
Just see how's the results of the coming interview in 2 weeks time. I should treat it as a sign.
posted by justanotherbrotherinchrist | 11:34 pm
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